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It was Sunday.Went fer mass as usual and was excited because trev was being commisioned as a young adult leader of our church.It was a big thing fer him.That went very well as the priest presented him with this beautiful cross.After mass, as my family headed back to my house fer a gathering, we decided that we should go pay his dad a visit first before heading back home fer dinner.We picked his mum n sis from home and made our way to the hospice.
Since my surgery, Ive not paid his dad a visit.But during that time, trev mentioned that his dad wasnt doing that well.He was feeling uncomfortable abit more than usual and that made him feel aggitated.Honestly, i thought that he was still like how he was when i came over to visit him a number of times since he decided to remain in the hospice.I didnt imagine him to be in the state that he was in that Sunday.
Trevs mum mentioned that his son and daughter was there, she even mentioned me.I remember aunty saying "Royce, if you can hear us squeeze my hand."And so he did.We sat there awhile,although his eyes wasnt open, i know and im sure he knew that his family was there beside him.After awhile, we decided that we'll head to the cafe for lunch since we havent had any yet.Trevs sis, he n me were talking and trev got a call.It was his mum.I saw the look in his eyes after he put dwn the phone.He din mention anything at all and continued eating.Now i realiza that he din wana worry his sister.A few seconds after, he received another call.This time, we had to leave.
We rushed up to the room and than everything from here is as clear to me as it happened just a second ago.Uncle was gasping.I really didnt know what that meant.Trev phoned his bro to make his way dwn as quickly as he could.Uncles mum,trevs grandma was sobbing constantly and had to sit dwn several times because her knee was feeling weak.Althoug so, she kept on holding her sons hands, talking to him with short sobs in between.A mothers touch can heal anything.All thi while i sat at the sofa quietly,saying prayers with the family.Shortly after, the nurse came in.She stood at the head of the bed and said softly that he was going to go soon.The other nurse mentioned that their dad can still hear them so they can talk to him.Aunty burst into tears.I felt paralysed.I was on the verge of crying..on the very edge but i stopped myself.I sucked it back in me.MY mind was telling me.."Who are you to cry?You are not his wife.You are not his children and you are not his mum."I grieved in my heart.
We left the room as the fam decided that they each wanted to speak to their dad alone.One by one they went in.
Uncle passed away shortly after at 230.
He has made peace with his family and most importantly God.
You will be in my prayers.
Trev, im here for you.
I'll answer late night calls.
I'll lend you both my shoulders.
I'll try and make you smile.
I'll pray with you.
I'll support you when you need it.
I'll have more blonde moments fer your expense.
I'll be your comfort.
You know how people say that when their partner is emotionally down or extremely happy, u tend to feel the same way.You are sad when hes sad,happy when hes happy?There are others who think thats aload of rubbish.I beg to differ.
I'll share your grief.
Gdnite.