Joanne.
TWENTY TWO.
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i just wana scream..at the top of my lungs..! whenever im alone, i feel breatheless.im trying hard to regain my composure..but to no avail.
This year has taken a rather huge toll on me.im not doing well in my studies and as a result my chest starts to feel a burning sensation whenever i recall my most"decent"grades.Now as finals are approaching..theres always this nagging thoughts at the back of my head..retain.but than again..i just try n focus on what i gta do to do well.so yea..putting those awful thoughts aside,this year has but many memories fer me..
firstly,thush retained n it felt so different without her beside me..but than agin..theres something gd tht came out of it..i became mre independent..so i should sae..i like it this way..n so does she..
secondly,my godfather passed away.i remember coming bk frm sch n feeling so tired tht i decided to take a nap..but i was soon awaken by this forceful shaking by my mother..my eyes refused to open but my ears picked up the sounds of soft cries by her.awhile later i soon began to register tht my godfather indeed passed away and than after..i was soon speechless.i gt out of my wet shirt(frm crying) n we flagged a cab heading to my godfather's house.MY GODFATHER'S HOUSE ...where sunday lunches were held..where our whole entire lee n lopez family would gather n chit chat on everything n anything..where my godfather would open his many bottles of jim beam or jack danielles...offering glasses to my father n uncles..toasting to his safe journey home frm russia..-gone-however i cn say one thing..the last time he came dwn was december fer christmas..this had been the christmas where he saw everyone..i mean everyone..i think there was a reason why he came bk in december..to see all of us for the last time..but in my heart it wont be the last time..kuz hes my father..the man who looked after me for 18 years of my life..-i miss you-
thirdly..me n a certain someone din work out...n i just wana say tht i miss him alot..yes i admit..but somethings are meant to be this way..n this IS tht something..i supose its better this way..i supose..but i do miss him..i cnt deny tht..9 months was a whole lot..quarrels n stuff..but there were fun times..haha..yea..there were..he tld me since tht he wants to forget..i supose kuz it pains him..i will not agree with him on tht point..kuz i will never forget..thts just the way i am..
other thn all these memories..there were plentiful tht were pleasant..my friends now are really cool bitches..who ive grwn accustomed to..haha..its no fun without every single one of them..seriously..they are a bunch of goons..hu make my dae in sch less stressful..kumz..well..the no nonsense bitch..lays..the forgetful bitch..comical as well..haha..eva..bloody bitch...but shes a nice gurl.. ahem..cnt believe im actually saying this..haha..lee..hmm...hmm..the getting smarter in english bitch..haha...man this gurl is learning fast..proud of her..haha..millie..the 'so called' bitch ah..but this gurl needs to be pampered by us so much..its adorable sometimes..shes just adorable ah...n hon..shes just a bossy bitch..haha..thery are all different..come to think of it..we all gt ssooooo different characters..it just amazes me how we end up getting along..but hey..hus complaining?haha...
training todae was so damn tiring..only 11 of us turned up..so pathetic!!was so pissed..niwae..we did ball passes..drills..n sukim tested on our reflexes..it was fun..me n theresa made a gd pair!!haha..thn we played in the rain...till abt 4..till she decided tht we should be the coach instead..so each of us hu could think of a drill to improve our arm strength or leg strength could cm up n coach the team..so i decided to teach them endurance..haha..they almost killed me..made them bend dwn so low..n each member must count till 20..in any time span they deem fit..haha..after our physical..we had to do 200 jumps..stretch to our highest point!it was so tiring..thn the finale..was 3 rounds..it was really exhausting but accomplishing..
tmrw is my kuzzin jenniffer n christophers bdae celebration at the condo..whole family going..theres always good food there..hopefully i cn wake up in time ah..haha..lunch..yum..
niwae gtg fer now..feeling EXHAUSTED!!!
=peace out=