Joanne.
TWENTY TWO.
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"It's okay to be angry and never let go.It only gets harder the more that you know.When you get lonely if no one's around, You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down"~to my dearest friends~
Yesterday, i went to sch in the mrning..as usual gt no studying dn.Millie, Akira, Liyana, Lays n I sat in the room upstairs..trying to study..hmm..think we gt very little done ah.niwae..Akira went over to the next rm to tok to tracy..hmm..he came bk after awhile..saying tht she din really tok much so he came bk..hmm..actually i salute you Akira..i mean..its so difficult to accept wad has happened to u yet u do it so effortlessly..i noe u still feel for her n stuff..but u are also like trying very hard to accept it..i havent really asked if u have accepted it yet..but frm the looks of it u havent..but i still salute you for bothering to msg her n treat her as a friend..a lil something fer you..
One boy, one girl, two hearts, their world
Time goes by, secrets rise
One more, sad song, tears shed, she's gone
She'd take it back, if she only could
All the perfect words they seem so wrong,
She's gone
You wish that you could learn to see,
The door is closed and yo wish you could be
Alone with you, alone with me
What can I do, I can not breath
My heart is torn, for all to see
Alone with you, alone with me....
hmm..yea well liyana, lays n millie followed me to my fam doc at bukit timah plaza..had a blood test dn..hmm hping nothing turns up..afraid..anxious..after tht we headed to paragon for lays dental checkup..n wad the hell it only lasted fer 10secs...!!i din even get to open my mentos!haha..yea after tht me lays n liyana did lotza trying on off clothes!!!it was damn fun man..lays tried on this suit thingy n she loved the pants..she looked hot..yea!liyana too..she looked gd man really..i just wanted them to like forget abt their problems even if it meant tht few hours u noe..it hurts me to see them even shed a tear..when they do..i tear to..i really love my frens alot..really..sigh..
thts when she started to cry..after i was trying on clothes..i noe hw she feels..i noe how teewee feels..im at a lost..i wana help both of them..its just so hard fer me u noe..im facing a lot myself..n im also like having to help all my frens..i choose to tht is..but my chest is really heavy..sigh..
we went to burger king..she just cried her eyes out nonstop..we were like consoling her the whole timeme thush n liyana..my head was pounding..my heart was racing..i was pissed n hurt at the same time..aaarrgh!!!n yes i hurt my hand..i banged it against the toilet door...i was really pissed..sad..hurt..every word in the dictionary tht comprehends the meaning of depression!
abt 8plus liyana brought me to cityhall..i wanted to go to the esplanade..to just ease my mind..i couldnt think straight neither could i walk straight..i went hm by one..kuz thulasi was really worried..i din wana make her worried..n i promised a close friend of mine..tht ill go hm before one..if not she wouldnt tok to me..so i did..
i went hm..n immediately sat on the floor..unable to move an inch..i felt insecure..heavy at heart..pain..i was physically n mentally tired!!i sat there n cried..tired..exhausted..all these woorying made me feel sick..i felt like throwing up..i hate the feeling!!!!!!!!!!!
i was really upset..like super upset!!kumari told me to take care..she ws tokin to lays...I LOVE YOU KUMARI!!!
Amanda was really sweet..she called me..n we toked..n she like just listened..n listened..well gurll dun eva sae tht u din help much..kuz really you did..u know like everything abt me..n how i feel even b4 i sae it..i cn tell u anything n u dun judge me..i really care for you like alot n i hope u noe tht.n u noe u cn come to me bitch wheneva u nd someone..n i promise yes i promse tht ill come to u to..
To my friends:kumari, lays, liyana, bunny,akira,saha..n millie n eva hu i dun think u are facing nithing tht drastic rite now..but if you are..well here goes:
Friends you n me..
you brought another friend
and than there were 3
we started our group
our circle of friends
and like that circle
There is no beggining or end....
no matter what im going thru..no matter how much life takes a toll on you guys..ill always listen..i love you pple..
n hueva who feels like how i do now..heres a lil something:
Alone Again With Love
Remembering the time that we were together,
The happiest moments in my life,
All that memories so happy,
But right now its blank,
Nothing here with me to stay.
Now that I’m alone,
Without you beside me,
Now I’m all alone,
With no one that I can talk to.
Oh my love can you see that,
You’ve hurt me bad,
That my love for you was true.
Oh my love what’s left,
When you have left me,
Nights are cold without you here,
I’m here all alone.
With no one to talk to,
I’m all alone again.
Sometime I just wish that,
I’ve never met you before,
So my heart won’t break,
Vividly fade away,
Into the past.
So my heart won’t die,
So my dream won’t die.
So I’ll be happy without you here.
Haven’t there been a night without you?
Tightly and sweetly holding me,
But now there’s only,
An image of you.
Right now,
There’s nothing here with me.
Oh my love what’s left,
When you have left me,
All alone without you here,
Coffees are so cold,
And so hard to drink,
It reminds me of you,
Sometime I just wish that,
I’ve never met you before,
So my heart won’t break,
And my dream won’t die,
All alone I’ll be happy.
=peace out=