Joanne.
TWENTY TWO.
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Once,
You held my heart in your hands. But it wasn't enough; You wanted it all.
I loved you then; and relutantly gave it, fragile as it was.
And in your hands, my heart, oh did it sing.
Such joy I knew as never before.
Blind in my happiness, carelessly in love.
I was a fool.
For I did not see it coming, that moment, When you visciously ripped it in half.
And with that, you wallked away without a word.
Without even a backward glance.
I cried.
Until I was empty;
No tears, no heart, nothing.
But I want it back you son of a bitch.
Did you throw it away?
Or did you keep it to laugh at.
I really don't care but I want my heart back.
I am tired of this emptiness, But bitterness has made me strong.
So watch your back, because I'm coming.
And I don't love you anymore.
well im gna start writing this blog thingy kuz its the june holidaes n im already bored outta my brains trying to think wad to do with my time..haha..niwae..think many of my frens already noe wad happenned to me during the past month..its kinda obvious ah..it has realli been an emotional rollercoaster ride fer me..mostly kuz of wad happened between me n him..he said "wad have u given me all this while"bla bla bla...we fought fer everything ah realli..fer nine mnths it was pure quarrelling!!than..liyana told me the truth tht she actually kept frm me fer quite a while..n yea..he cheated on me..n double yea..he din tell me..i had to ask him..months later..whch is recently ah..and all he cld sae was.."yea im a bastard"..and gave reasons like"kuz we were fighting and i just needed the concern frm a gurl or something like tht..niwae..i cried my heart out fer daes..n nw im dn with tht..he has his own life..n i have mine..
niwae..todae i spent my sat morning siting in frn of an examiner hu stared at me like im some unknown species..apparently i wasnt even saying nithing..whch i wsnt la..haha..yea..it was malay oral..EVERYONE noes im a disgrace to the malay world when it comes to speaking the language!!haha..niwae tht was tht..gna get a zero fer just staring at him..wadeva ah!
after tht i came hm..slept awhile n had to get ready to go meet saha..we were gna go esplanade..but guess wad!!ui gt stuck in my own bloody home!!wad the hell right?the gate couldn't open so it was my dad outside n me my mum n alyson inside..it was damn funny..hahahah..left the hse onli at 8 plus..so we reached esplanade late..we went to eat kwae teow..yummy..spicy..cooked by some famous chef..the queue was super loooong!!!so nan came n we toked..she was there too with her frens..think fer some concert thingy..yea..she had a fight with mona..so she was like frowning the whole time..not cute gurl!!haha..niwae..she hugged me b4 she left..ws kinda shock kuz i din expect it..SO haha i gave a slow reaction..haha..like a doofus la..but yea..it was fun.tmrw im goin to hang with her..so yea..it shld be an eventful dae..haha.
sigh..i have been feeling so many things lately..n i dun even noe wad to think man..seriously..mixed feelings i guess..n really..lifes a bitch..when it comes to love.
Put your hands on me
I want to feel it.
Get thru my defenses
If not mentally,than physically.
Leave your mark on me
Brand me with your love.
Make me beg
For what we both need.
Make me feel something.
If not love,
Than desire.
Bruise my soul
Do not be gentle,
My senses are dulled.
I need this so badly.
Can you find that spark
Inside.
And free me if only for a
moment.
=Peace out=